2008年12月30日星期二

人生

人生是短暂的。

人生是痛苦的。也是消极的。

年轻时,为了生存,为了温饱,把自己当做一部赚钱的机器,生活提款机。把一生的时光与血汗向顾主换取金钱。这样的奔波劳碌,为了活命,加上嗜好、消遣、运动等等自己兴趣的事情,这样看来,生活简单、规律,可是这样人生是否就是有意义?

人生就这样简单吗?你不觉得这样的所谓“写意人生”缺乏应有的价值观吗?

其实,人的一生不止是这样舒适的度过的。它应该包涵贡献社会。能突破个人的生活环境,创造更美好的未来,将使人生更有意义。

我说:人总得把个人的部分缩小,无私奉献自己,歇力完成大我的目标。

这样的人生是充满喜乐的,也是积极的人生。

2008年12月29日星期一

纸老虎重现


马来西亚人大多数对反贪局根本没有信心,主要原因是执政团队可以利用政府机关各种资源来应付指控贪污者,甚至包庇或袒护涉及贪污的官员,官官相护是司空见惯的现象,尤其是是像马来西亚这种实行种族分享政权的国度,最大的政党,即巫统的霸主地位,“唯我独尊,号令天下,谁敢不从”,五十多年来利用国阵这张王牌,“挂羊头,卖狗肉”,其他属下十多个盟友,各怀鬼胎,为个人官禄商利,对族群利益静若寒蝉,为自身利益将党务告上法庭者有之。


巫统党选甚嚣尘上,贪污贿选时有所闻,可是就没有被检举或告发的相继事件发生,巫统前老大马太爷不就口口声声,声明他有证据有人滥权买票,博出线当党领导人吗?利用金钱买票当选后,顺利成章,过了大选一关,就可以当部长,功名利禄,财源滚滚——这就助长了党内贪污腐败的风气。


阿都拉上任后就说要听真话吗?过后有部长官员因应涉贪污被控上庭,后来案件没有下文。2004年大选,阿都拉竟然取得不俗的成绩,原以为他痛定思痛,下定决心铲除巫统党内的贪腐,真心诚意,按部就班,对症下药,根除政府部门,根深蒂固的贪腐现象,可是面对自己党内的贪腐干部,他真是无能为力,欲哭无泪,要不然,也不至于被逼宫,在任内提早下台了事。


虽然,阿都拉有心要健立廉政的政府,可是面对错综复杂的政敌党阀,简直就是缚手缚脚,说要完成任内的司法改革与推动成立2008年反贪污委员会(MACC) ,取代1997年反贪污法令,如今2008年反贪污委员会法案在下议院已三读通过,只要上议院通过,就可以在2009年生效。


令人觉得遗憾的是MACC还是一只纸老虎,给人民的印象有点换汤不换药,旧酒装新缸。将来即使扩大组织网罗更多达5000个官员,各类叠床架屋的局、会和组根本没有办法起遏制贪污腐败作用,原因是它没有像香港廉政署ICAC(Indepedent Commission Against Corruption)那样拥有绝对自由的提控权。在缺乏透明度的国家,政府的公信力没有了,人民心知肚明政府肃贪的决心就会大打折扣,以往的记忆,好多高官涉贪被控上庭还是笑嘻嘻,最后政府给人的解说是证据不足,被告当庭释放。政府给人民的印象是尝试袒护贪官污吏,尽管反贪污局人员已尽责,并无法在大案件的审讯结果给人民满意的解释。


众所周知,贪污腐败是政府最大的痼疾,其危害程度仅次于暴政。有诚意贡献反贪事业的官员,原本下决心“明知山有虎,偏向虎山行”, 可是顶头上司没有赋予执行的法律依据,心灰意冷,只好苟且偷安。执政者明知问题的征结,却有意无意地绕过一个大圈子,回避问题的征结,转移焦点,不是讳疾忌医,这是主政者表现心虚,必有隐忧或暗藏玄机,所谓:“人无远虑,必有近忧”。1974年香港成立了廉政公署,它拥有独立自主的调查与提控权,只需向港督(1997年7月1 日起香港特别行政区首长)负责,对贪污的警队展开迅雷不及掩耳的肃贪行动,也获得人民的广泛支持合作与信任,成立后破案率高,终于打造了今日廉洁,高效率的政府,也间接为香港吸引外资作出一定的贡献。

总而言之,新法案中没有赋予反贪局自由的提控权,日后必然引人垢病,也是阿都拉当政应断不断的历史缺憾。当前世界各国还是要面对贪污滥权的问题,唯独大马政府能一而再,再而三地的容忍下去,故息养奸。“此地无银三百两,隔壁王二不曾偷”的悬念至今依然存在,吾不忍卒睹,真是情何以堪?

2008年12月27日星期六

知女莫若父


每年,冬至之后,送神过后,家人就会大扫除,准备迎接新年的来临。


年年如此的家务活动,我想今年也不破例。怎知今天大女儿与三女儿相继来电话,说她们愿意出钱请钟点女佣来我家服务。又说打扫整个房屋楼舍工作会很辛苦,女佣可以帮助解决家里琐碎的事务。

向来为了家,我无怨无悔,尽管生活多忙碌,我们都是亲力亲为,从来没有体验过自己家顾佣外人来家进行清洁服务。不过女儿要为我提供一站式钟点清洁服务,倒使我有点受宠若惊之感,当然,我也感觉到很宽慰、很温馨、很窝心——最起码女儿们开始关怀我这顾家的老人家了。

我婉言回拒了她们的一片好意,并从今天就开始收拾,先把堆积如山的书报、铝罐、铁罐、塑料品,以及玻璃瓶子,不计价钱卖了。然后稍微把天花板扫一扫灰尘,接着与内人合作抹七支吊扇十盏日光灯管。最难搞的是厨房的那支抽空扇,油尘密封,小心翼翼的把它拆卸下来,清洗抹干再上滑油后,再把它装置妥当。接下来的抹地板工作全由内人包办。她已习以为常。

所谓“知难行易”,学习“愚公移山”老当益壮的精神,不屈不挠,凡事只要肯动动脑筋,能力所及,按部就班,将计划加于落实,印证实践出真理,“天下无难事,只怕有心人”的真理。女儿用心良苦,没说出口的话是“爸爸老了,不能再攀高爬低,害怕万一出意外”,又怕我对“老”会产生敏感,有所忌讳。其实,我早就猜透她们的好心意,所谓“知女莫若父”。

当然,万一有一天,我真的不能攀高爬低,我会豪不保留的让她们顾请女佣代劳,绝对不再逞强。到时,我乐得清闲自在。

2008年12月25日星期四

兑现稿费

好久没领到稿费了,如今每个月都会拿到有两张稿费领取单。九月开始投稿,十月份共兑现款一百五十多令吉。

打从邮差手上接过稿费单,顿时,我觉得很有满足感,虽然是绞尽脑汁,搜索枯肠所得,还是要懂得感恩自己这幅老骨头,能耐得住坐;感恩我自己的眼力还看得清楚;感恩我的手指还可以随心所欲,弹动自如。

总之,能凭自己生命的余辉,仅有的棉力,除了打发时间,还可以排忧解闷,又出师有名——响应终生学习运动,一举数得,虽然面对退稿,搁稿,邀稿,删稿,我信心十足,还是要放胆搞一搞,反正不偷不抢。“君子爱财,取之于道”,更何况写稿是最劳心的工作,又是最吃力不讨好的文化投资,和从事教育事业的老师一样“吃的是草,挤的是奶”。

最近,笔者深居浅出,为了节省油钱,不到市区报馆代理商兑现稿费,径自将稿费付还报费。派报员没拿到现款,还要找现钱给我,从他肢体语言,仿佛有点不高兴的样子。

第二个月,他把稿费与报费对扣剩余也扣押了,我含笑对他说:“我写稿是为了订阅报纸,无所谓。你记录一下,剩余下个月再扣当付报费。”只见他笑得很勉强。

圣诞佳音


2008
圣诞节
hohoho

全球传佳音
圣诞树上挂满
五彩缤纷的礼物
金融风暴
企业相继倒闭
商场热闹买客少
借贷利率调低二十五的基点
外资企业落跑
全球裁员滚滚来
倾家荡产
自杀
治安不靖
日常物价涨不停
手里钞票天天在缩水
百亿钞票买不起面包一条
一亿七千万失业大专生再培训
怨声载道
老百姓的生活费
水涨船高
能死就不能病
所得税局新花样预扣
国家心藏中心有利可图要私营化
私营南北大道“不拉屎”将调高买路钱



2008年12月24日星期三

寄意网中人

给《星云》副主编蔡兴隆兄
遥想蔡兄兴网浓
心血来潮诗意涌
撰稿打油为自娱
网络抒情亦枉然
前天,我寄了一首自嘲打油诗《一天》给星洲日报活力副刊《星云版》,想不到该版副主编蔡兴隆兄竟然回信问我:该首打油诗是否要投稿。我一是不置可否,只是像丈八和尚,摸不着头脑。
今天阅报看到蔡兄也开始沉迷浏览网络,于是心血来潮,随兴撰了一首七言寄给他。

2008年12月20日星期六

望文生艺,盼春思秋


前天,星洲日报《文艺春秋》版编辑黄俊麟先生来电邮,证实有意发表我的短篇小说《封港天》。一时百感交集,除了感激,就是兴奋,对我来说是一种莫大的鼓励,因为近来我多数把稿件投到《星云》与《商余》等版位。

我与《文艺春秋》结缘甚久,打从七十年代就不间断阅读它所刊载的文艺佳作,心血来潮,跃跃欲试,就陆陆续续投稿,更与当时的编辑甄供先生有了互动的机缘。当时,自己有缘与一群文艺青年谈文论艺,豪气冲天。偶有意见不同也借着《文艺春秋》这平台来互相沟通。章钦与林橡等不就为了“水蛭”的名称而印发一场笔战吗?星转斗移,时过境迁,如今依然历历在目,希望当时有参与争论的投稿人一一健在。连续剧《三国演义》的序曲不就唱道:“......是非成败转头空,青山依旧在,几度夕阳红......”而今相信大家已经是“乡音无改鬓毛衰”的白头翁了。

回想在《文艺春秋》结缘,投稿,阅读,论战,时光一幌,三四十年过去了,而今《文艺春秋》在有心人的细心栽培下,茁壮成长,百花齐放,一片欣欣向荣的气象,真教人感到羡慕与骄傲,因为自己曾经在它文艺园地耕种过,见猎心喜的念头油然而生,顿时慨叹人生短暂,自己的渺小,徒增几许惆怅与失落感而已。

伟大哲学家马克思曾说:“一切发展中的事务皆是不完美的。”见微知著,事实胜于雄辩,以今天的《文艺春秋》新颖的格式面貌,相信在正确的方针指引下,加上编辑精心的策划,以扎实稳健的步伐迈进,图文并茂,相信明天会更灿烂亮丽,文学岂只“可以觑尽红颜,偶开天眼”?让广大的读者拭目以待吧。

2008年12月19日星期五

某一天

一天不浏网
生活添烦恼
魂魄没着落
空虚真难过
一天报没来
日子当没过
难忍空寂寞
耐何恐错过
一天没写作
精神像失落
投稿没着落
岁月漫磋砣
物质越充实
精神越空虚
玩物防丧志
患得又患失上网

2008年12月18日星期四

To Sir, With Love----- A memoir


I got in touch with English language while I was in Chinese Primary School in Tongkang Pechah New Village in the year early 1960s. At that time, there was no such thing as kindergarten, I and my neighbour peer group did not have any basic knowledge about the twenty-six alphabets, that is from A to Z, either the pronunciation or the written form. They all new to us.


When I registered as a Standard Three boy, then I was forced to learn to read ABC and then got to learn by heart the pronunciation of some very common vocabularies, such as book, basket,blackboard, chair, chalk, duster, desk, pencil, ruler, which are things that we can see in the classroom. From my memory, we did not have a proper " bag" , we got basket instead.


When I was in Standard Four, I started to read and recite " A pan, a man, a pan and a man." And we got to copy and draw from the blackboard the supplementary reader story " Janet and John". Mr. Lim Sook Hwa was my English language teacher. He is a very strict teacher, although he is a pious Christian, he never preached Christianity in front of us at that time. All the villagers and pupils respected him sincerely.


While I was studying in upper standard, that is Standard Five and Six, my English language teacher was Mr. Ng Zizhen. He was very friendly and helpful. Any pupil who scored full mark or 100 marks in the weekly spelling or dictation would be entitled to have two sweets or candies as a token of encouragement. I always got the chance to taste the sweetness from him. Mr. Ng was also very generous to buy me a small rubber ball. At that time , the school authority did not supply leather football, and we always faced a shortage of sports or games teaching aids. After school, I led all my peers to play football in the field next to the local temple.


How came I always scored full mark in my spellings and dictations? In the morning while tapping rubber trees I used to recite word by word and sentence by sentence before entering the the classroom. I felt proud when all the time Mr. Ng asked me to read in the classroom. Sometimes I was asked to act as an assistant teacher guide- teaching all the other classmates.


After completing the six-year primary courses, I passed my Secondary Entrance Examination 1n the year 1960. The next year I was posted to study in a newly established Dato Bentara Luar National Secondary School. Mr. Lee Cheng San was my English language teacher. He was a young and handsome teacher who had just graduated from the Malayan Teachers' College. He used to encourage all the students to listen and speak in English. He told us that he was English-educated, could not understand or speak Mandarin. This gave me and those from primary Chinese school students a golden opportunity to learn and adapt to a English-speaking environment. And gradually we proved to him that we made it with willingness and grace.


In the year 1963 I came to know Mr Jimmy Chan, who taught me English language. I recalled asking him a new word 'stripteaser', which I could not find in my small dictionary.


'Sir, what is the meaning of striptease?' I waited eagerly for the answer.


Jimmy Chan might be feeling shy, " Just strip to tease , that's all." At that particular moment, he did not appease my curiosity.For Jimmy,who was a devout Catholic did not really satisfy my expectation, I remained doubtful and keen to get an answer. After quite some times I came to understand the actual meaning of the word from after reading local newspaper, The Straits Times with a picture of Jane Chan , then the famous stripteaser and dancer of Malaya and Singapore.
At the end of the year, I passed my LCE (Lower Certificate of Education) and was transferred to Batu Pahat High School for studying in Form Four the next year.


New enviroment means new challenge ahead, but luckily my cousin, Ow Peng was teaching Science in High School. This appease my upset and worry. I was given free authority to study with the kind assistance of my cousin. I studied in a Form 4 Arts Class One. This time we had two English lesson teacher, Mr. Chin Shin Peow taught me English Literature, Mr. Ong Teow Hoon taught me English grammar and composition.


In High School at that time, all the students were scared of Mr Chin, who was an old experienced teacher there. He walked like a professor, with books kept tight under his right armpit while his left long sleeve swinging to and fro . He was a chain smoker . Before he entered the classroom, he finished his smoking and blowing.We all knew him because he was very serious and straight while teaching in class. I enjoyed reading All Man Are Brothers, the life story of Peace Nobel Prize winner ,Dr. Albert Schweitzer and William Shakespeare's Macbeth.


We all tend to be very attentive during English Literature lessons conducted by Mr. Chin. Those days, some Malay students did not like him, just because their pronunciation did not meet Mr. Chin's requirement. He always criticised our learning attitude, and straightaway pinpointed our mistakes and tried to correct them right away, but still we could not follow his steps. Finally he became very angry and scolded the class for stupidity and ignorance. Some of the students who did not like to attend his lessons would prefer to skip class. Next day, Mr Chin forced them verbally to admit their bad behaviour in a very sarcastic tone. Eventually those who did not turn out yesterday would surrender themselves. Although I could not remember the exact words of a statement Mr. Chin used to force the unscrupulous elements to give out to him, but imagine how powerful was the verbal language of Mr. Chin Shin Peow.


Last but not least, the most wonderful experience I had been a High School old boy is that in Form Five, my English teacher was a Sikh, Mr. Chandran singh, and the English literature teacher was a young American, by the name of Duncan. He taught us The Old Man And The Sea , While Mr. Chin taughtJulie Caesar. We enjoyed playing a role in the drama on stage. He gave me full mark for my literature context questions. I still recall his tall and fair apperance.


I am very happy today because nearly all my former English language teachers are still alive, except Mr Chandran whom I still do not know his whereabouts and the former High School Principal, Mr. Mathai who had emigrated to his hometown in India after retirement.


Sincerely speaking, I am very grateful all my former teachers especially those who understand my feelings, I still owe my gratitude to their kindness and dedication for educating me. I like English language and literature very much, but under our present system of education and administration, I have been neglected for continue contributing my English knowledge and skills.

2008年12月17日星期三

Kehilangan Akal Datuk M.Kayveas

Pemimpin Parti Progresif Rakyat (PPP) kerapkali membuat ugutan keluar Barisan Nasonal. Nampaknya kali ini, Datuk M.Kayveas telah meludah air ke langit , diri sendiri mendapat malu dan meletakkan pucuk pemimpin partinya dalam dilema. Beliau sepatutnya menepuk dada tanya selera sebelum bertindak secara membabi buta.

Bukan kali pertama PPP di bawah kepimpinan Datuk M.Kayveas membuat ugutan. Sebelum ini, beliau pernah mengugut meninggalkan BN jikalau partinya tidak diberi kuota menteri dan kerusi pilihan raya tertentu. Pasca pilihan raya umum ke12, telah menyaksikan ada pemimpin tertentu parti komponen mengambil pendirian yang bercanggah dengan semangat dan permuafakatan BN. Ramai melihat tindakan PPP keterlaluan, majoriti dalam BN berpendapat parti PPP tidak wajar sekali kekal dalam BN.

Sebagai tindak balas kepada ugutan PPP , Perdana Menteri Malaysia merangkap Pengerusi Barisan Nasional, Datuk Seri Ahmad Badawi menegaskan PPP bebas untuk meninggalkan Barisan nasional jika pucuk pemimpin berhasrat berbuat demikian.

Baru-baru ini, Datuk M.Kayveas mendesak Barisan Nasional dan kerajaan Malaysia supaya meminda Akta Keselamatan Dalam Negeri (ISA), tetapi Perdana Menteri menegaskan bahawa kerajaan tidak mempunyai sebarang cadangan untuk meminda Akta ISA seperti disyaratkan oleh PPP untuk ia kekal sebagai parti komponen.

Kenyataan PM tersebut cukup tegas dan jelas mesegnya. Datuk M.Kayveas berpandangan pendek untuk membuat tuntutan dan ugutan kali ini , tanpa mengambil kira sokongan , realiti dan kekuatan partinya sejak berlakunya tsunami politik 308 tahun ini.

Sir Cliff Richard

The Young Ones
by: Sir Cliff Richard

The young ones
Darling, we're the young ones
And the young ones
Should'nt be afraid
To live, love
While the flames is strong
For we may not be
The young Ones very long
Tomorrow
Why wait untill tomorrow
'cos tomorrow
Sometimes never comes
So love me
There's a song to be sung
And the best time
Is to sing while we're young

Once in every lifetime
Comes a love like this
I need you
You trust me
Oh, my darling, can't you see
That young dreams together
And young heart
Should'nt be afraid
And some day
When the years have flown
Darling then we'll teach
The young one of our own

Once in every lifetime
Come, a love like this
I need you
You need me
Oh, my darling, can't you see
That young dreams together
And young hearts
Should'nt be afraid
And some day
When the years have flown
Darlng, then we'll teach
The young one of our own
I used to wait for listening to Cliff Richard's song-The Young Ones in the year late 1960s when I was a High School student in Batu Pahat. At that time, I was staying with my uncle and aunt. My eldest cousin, Ow Peng was a England Kirby Teacher College trained teacher. They all treated me and my youngest brother, Au Teck well. With all the free foods and lodging, we were quite happy.
Ow Peng has two brothers and two sisters. His second brother Woo Kwang was a popular hit-song singers crazy fan. He always stayed out late every night and he always turned a deaf to his parents' lectures and his elder brother's advices. He always puts on fancy clothing with Elvis Presley hair-style.Whenever he goes he brings along a guitar. At that time he dropped out of Independent Chinese High School and continued his studies in Charleston Private English School.That was the time his behaviour became worse.
Ow Peng's youngest brother, Woo Lip was my peer-group. We always argued over small matter,
such as religious rites , popular songs or actor and actresses . But we got together and listened very attentively to radio broadcasting, especially our favourite hits is on air. We followed the lyrics and sang along "The Young Ones", " Summer Holidays","Summer Kisses Winter Tears", "Seals with a Kiss" etcetera. Everytime, my aunt scolded us for being so crazy singing and shouting all over the kitchen, where the old radio was placed on the cupboard. But my kind aunt never showed us her temper, she just like to grumble only.
That was the time, I learned my English from all my eldest cousin and her wife,Irene, especially the perfect English pronunciations and phonetic. At home when we were having dinner they conversed in English language and as I listened I learned by heart, sometimes I checked out dictionary for vocabularies. That was a golden opportunity for me to buck up my English.
I really grateful to all of them, who had contributed their good deeds either directly or indirectly for my well being,which I appreciate from the bottom of my heart.
For Sir Cliff Richard, although I did not attend The Concert in Genting Highlang Hotel, because I could not afford to buy the tickect, but I really appreciate his kind contribution for raising 50,000 pounds for research into Alzheimer's disease to be carried out by doctors of Newcastle University in United Kingdom.
Sir Cliff Richard ,who was borned in 1940, still stays single. He started his career as a pop star when he was 18. He and his chums tried to save their youth club from destruction by an unscrupulous property developer. His courage and decisive action won him familiarity, fame,and popularity .Unfortunately, his mother lost her life to the dementia disease. So he became the patron of the charity, and his pop star's BBC lifetime appeal last month for the Alzheimer's Research Trust resulted in more than one thousand making donation.
Although Sir Cliff Richard no more a young man, but he still active and invigorating in singing and performance on stage. My adoration for Cliff Richard is in a spirit of emulation. Hoping that all the younger generation will be open and enlighten their mind.




2008年12月16日星期二

机缘巧合


我不是专业摄影师,不过我挺喜欢摄影这项户外活动。我没有胆量参加本地的影艺协会,听说那些有专业水准的摄影师拥有的摄影工具配备不是数千,就是数万,不是普通人有办法负担的,我这穷酸老翁有先见之明,哪里还敢靠近他们。


不过话说回来,我也拥有两架摄影机,第一架是日本名牌进口货,它叫雅西嘉YASHICA,是我在1975年担任通讯记者时,咬紧牙根向摄影社老板买下的二手货,成交价二百五十元,比起我当老师的一个月薪水还要多。当时我太太含笑体贴我,唠叨牢骚一两句,就绝口不提起。我还是很感激她的宽宏大量,遗憾的是她鼓励我通讯员,买了摄影机,她谦称自已不上镜,不爱照相,如今尽管家里相簿相片那么多,可惜遗留给家人纪念的寥寥无几,非常有限,回想往事,不胜唏嘘!


从此,我就与摄影机结了不解之缘。出门总不忘与它形影相随。闲暇时周围环境就是我物色写生的好时机,我总会捉紧机遇,海边夕阳,菜园景色,椰林晨曦,后院木瓜特写,总之接触的景色美不胜收,尽收眼帘,对焦后全收录在摄影机瞳孔里,婴孩写真集,甚至我未满周岁的大女儿阿敏就是我的第一个摄影摸特儿了。幼稚,可爱,活泼的她很合作,在要求下什么姿势都摆得好,所以我得心应手,也花了不少相片冲洗费。


就这样一招半式走天涯,采访新闻带摄影机,好气派。最得意还是新闻相片刊登出来,才有稿费,要不然血本无归,自叹倒霉,哑子吃黄连。虽然吃点亏,可是摄影的技术却大有进步,美光专业摄影社东主也对我赞赏有加,好不开心喔!


千禧年到中国云南丽江旅行观光,我随身带着雅西嘉摄影机去,看见的人都把它叫“傻瓜相机”,害我尴尬万分,团友莫不叫我收起来,太太也不敢跟我站在一起,最后我真无奈,出门观光只好把傻瓜留在宾馆,这样就少了烦恼,自觉自在多了。


后来最小的女儿出世了,手头较充裕,就在其他女儿的怂恿之下,再买一架数码相机,真巧,也是雅西嘉的产品。用了不久就交给女儿用,现在它又跟我一样功成身退,静悄悄的安置在橱里;我这兼职业余摄影爱好者也告老退休了。不过人老心不老,昨天在后院遛狗,飞来一只红蜻蜓,我一时压抑不住好奇欲望,仿佛阔别五十五年的老朋友,一见如故,虽然时过境迁,我赶快回家拿了女儿崭新的新力数码相机SONY CYBERSHOT,像狗仔队一样,盯紧目标,贴身跟踪,快手快脚,对准红彤彤的大蜻蜓的轮廓卡嚓卡嚓两三次,然后上网公布在自己的部落格,当晚我家来了三个年轻医生,她们莫不对我的摄影技术赞不绝口,我也飘飘然。


人生充满变数,人与人,人与物也有机缘巧合的时机,如果没有及时珍惜,就会错失良机。“有缘千里来相会,无缘对面不相逢”,缘分得之不易,好好充实每一天,即使来日不是风就是雨,我也盼望灿烂的阳光,今生当无悔,潇洒走一回!




毛虫的蜕变


小孩子的变化真快,尤其是他的思想意识,我们身为父母或老师的不得不时时刻刻要加于注意,千万不可掉于轻心,在孩子成长的过程中,从生活中观察,彼此感情的交流是非常重要的环节。




就于我大孙女慧恩来说吧,今晚看见妈妈与众阿姨们谈得起劲,她觉得自已被大人忽略了,就从书架抽出一本杂志来找我讲故事。




那时一本英国出版的昆虫杂志——《BUGS》,一打开,她就滔滔不绝,向我提出了许许多多似是而非的问题:




“阿公,这是什么虫,它的头为什么一点一点的?”我还来不及向她解释昆虫的复眼构造,她又抛出另一道题考验我:




“阿公阿公,苍蝇吃垃圾不会死,人吃了就会生病。——老师说的。”




我打蛇随棍,连忙附合她从昆虫的生态习性说到人的保健问题。我真想灌输卫生习惯的重要,她也问道:




“毛毛虫有穿衣吗?”她扯了衣领,疑惑满脸地看着我。




我杜撰:“她整身是美丽的毛发,哪里还要穿衣?所有的野生动物,昆虫都不用穿衣,人类才要穿衣服,要不然就丑丑,人家会笑你。”




我曾是小学科学老师,还没有被古怪刁钻的问题难道。印象中被发问最多的是“我从那里生出来”、“先有鸡,还是先有蛋?”




三岁的小孩子正充满了好奇心。在求知欲的驱使下,加上家长与老师的细心解释说明,她心中的疑窦就会解开,这样自然可以加强她学习求知的信心。问题往往是家长与老师们没有闲情逸致,更糟糕的是缺乏耐心,爱心发挥不出来,碍于自身知识的肤浅,滥用权威阻拦,压制学生发问,结果把天才的幼苗给扼杀了!这种现象在我国教育学府俯拾即是,多么可悲啊!

2008年12月15日星期一

小芮恩开步走了!


转眼间,外孙女芮恩已可以自立行走了。虽然步伐亦步亦趋,不敢逾越,可是动作还算敏捷,只是没有那么扎实稳健吧了。


我一眼看他笑嘻嘻的样子,就会联想到女儿们还在襁褓期,平时沉闷的客厅顿时充满了欢乐的气氛,总之一家人都会很开心。


在客厅里,一个婴孩牙牙学语,刚刚要学行走,父母亲都很开心,在公公婆婆,阿姨等的逗弄下,她会很开心,士气也大受鼓舞,自然会果敢的跨出历史性的第一步。所谓“千里之行,始于足下”,即然有了第一步,她就会有继续前进的动作,逐渐学会自己走路,那时她就会放弃别人的支助,最后充满信心向前迈步走了。回头仔细想想,我们成人做事不也是一样,“万事起头难”就是最好的写照。谁能否认这个过程呢?


想起我二女儿,学说话较她大姐迟,学走也慢到另大人担心的地步。可是尽管慢,一旦学会了,却教人有“一鸣惊人”,“一走冲天”之慨,真是始料未及的事。


希望芮恩也想她二姨一样,起步慢,中气足,后劲够,冲刺力强,一鼓作起,完成人生的目标!

祭告族魂林连玉

死去原知万事休
但悲华教纠纷在
学子前途谁在意
墓前伤感告族魂


新纪元人事纷争
叶新田排除异己
柯嘉逊前功尽毁
邱师忘宗断根论
亲者痛 仇者快
徒增华裔的惆怅

2008年12月11日星期四

临老抒怀


一生孺子情,半世俗务债,吃喝拉撒睡,健康幸福随。

笔耕来时路,耳顺境虚度;古稀犹在望,努力加餐饭。


人生是个舞台,我们都是戏子,生,旦,净,末,丑,人人都尽力扮演好自己的角色。如果有天分,再加上自己的苦功,演出的角色维妙维肖,栩栩如生,肯定教观众拍案叫绝,叹为观止。


在人生的舞台上,只有开场,演员上台,精彩的演绎人生万象,是喜剧,抑或悲剧,轮不到戏子决定,冥冥中编剧已替你决定,还有导演在指挥,无论戏子的表演技巧如何精湛,最后谢幕闭幕,演员下台,一出戏就算结束了。

我常常在想,如果人生有彩排哪该多好哇!我这六十三岁的老头儿,总不可能再有机会上台扮演风度翩翩,风流倜傥的小生了,丑角这滑稽人物才有我的分。即然人生是如此的短暂,我们就不必斤斤计较,个人的得失,这样才能把一切的烦恼都抛掉,天天喜嘻哈哈过逍遥自在的生活。

2008年12月7日星期日

兔死狗烹

昨天收到远方朋友的电邮,告诉我他不作某日报的通讯记者了。

再三细心的追问下,他终于如实相告。朋友堂堂是一个华校退休校长。四年前退休后,不愿申请当续聘教师,选择安享晚年,过含饴弄孙的写意人生,后来在有心人鼓动三寸不烂之舌色的游说下,竟然兴致勃勃的,当起某西方日报的通讯记者来,每个月稿费津贴连同招徕的广告收入也有整千零吉。领了第一个月的酬劳后,还请我吃小福州的福州面与酒槽鸡呢!

前后才经过几年,怎么料到,突然间报馆竟然反脸不认人,亮出杀手锏,列出种种限制——华团庆典宴会不必应酬出席;社团活动的采访要自已斟酌处理;采访交通津贴取消;车祸等意外若没有死人,不必报道;广告招徕以及刊登词挽词免谈,诸如此类七除八扣之下,半路出家的无冕皇帝,又能有什么作为?又能为当地大众做出什么贡献?又能为报社作出什么奉献?

根据《史记.越世家》记载:范蠡协助越王勾践复国后,不敢奢望论功行赏,即刻离开越王,然后从齐国带信奉劝文种所说的另一句话,就是“飞鸟尽,良弓藏;狡兔死,走狗烹。越王是一个可与共患难,不可与共乐”。

问世间公理何在?我还在上下探索。现代的媒体应该对所有的人提供公正,平等,诚恳的服务,但不能忽略社会公义的维护与捍卫,更重要的也要保障员工的基本利益,因为剥削员工不是资本家的特权,而是对人力资源的一种肯定!

回想今年初,也有人三番四次邀我进入这一行业服务,如今听了朋友一席话,庆幸我思前想后婉拒了他的好意,要不然我也会像朋友那样,被有心人讨了便宜又卖乖,被利用够了就抛弃,下场就像哑巴吃黄莲——有苦无处诉!自叹自讨没趣了!